I'VE HAD ENOUGH... i cant handle this shitty diagnosis, my depression is killing me, i cant deal with people right now, im triggered to fuck by absoulutely anything and im battling suicidal feelings pretty much 24/7. Short version of whats going on. I am so desperate to end my life right now that I would do it in any way possible as long as I knew it would work, but my resources are serverely limited. I know people say hang on in there, it gets better. But I can't wait any longer. I've been battling these thoughts for 10 consecutive days now - the longest ive ever had this. Ive already attempted once in those days... I'm too close right now to trying it again.