Discussion in 'Help Me! I Need to Talk to Someone.' started by SashaJade, May 23, 2011.

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  1. SashaJade

    SashaJade Well-Known Member


    i cant handle this shitty diagnosis, my depression is killing me, i cant deal with people right now, im triggered to fuck by absoulutely anything and im battling suicidal feelings pretty much 24/7.

    Short version of whats going on.

    I am so desperate to end my life right now that I would do it in any way possible as long as I knew it would work, but my resources are serverely limited. I know people say hang on in there, it gets better. But I can't wait any longer. I've been battling these thoughts for 10 consecutive days now - the longest ive ever had this. Ive already attempted once in those days... I'm too close right now to trying it again.
  2. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    i know but you have battled and won through those days okay so you can battle and win again. You call the hospital or go there and get help You call crisis line get help You call your doctor get help okay Don't fight this alone it is too hard hugs to you.
  3. FBD

    FBD Well-Known Member

    hey you made it through 10 days, you can push through a few more im sure you can. its not time to give up yet
  4. lightbeam

    lightbeam Antiquities Friend

    Sam! I wish I could be there to help you get through this. Go to A&E and tell them what's going on; or call crisis to talk to someone who can help.

    Or log back on here, and we can help you through it in chat.
  5. SashaJade

    SashaJade Well-Known Member

    Thank you guys...

    I've tried everything to battle this, I really have. The only option I have left is the psychiatric ward... And I can see myself ending up there again.

    I just have so much fricking self hatred right now that I don't give a shite about anything. I'd die tonight if I could. Sigh.

    I'm so... unsettled I guess is the word. My emotions are all over the place.

    On the outside i'm happy, but on the inside i'm screaming. They're screaming... I need quiet. I need rest. I need release.
  6. lightbeam

    lightbeam Antiquities Friend

    If you are feeling that bad, I'd go to A&E right now.
  7. SashaJade

    SashaJade Well-Known Member

    I would if I could get there...
  8. lightbeam

    lightbeam Antiquities Friend

    then call a crisis line, and maybe they can help.
  9. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    call crisis they will get you the ambulance to take you there
  10. Kiba

    Kiba Well-Known Member

    Call a crisis line Sam :hug: They can maybe get transport for you to go to A&E and get the help you need.
  11. SashaJade

    SashaJade Well-Known Member

    ive got so many threads in this forum that i just decided to add to this one.

    im slipping down the slope, further than i ever have before. the internal pain is blinding. i cant see past it. its all there is. nothing calms the pain, nothing helps me to be distracted from it. this is all i have now.

    i dont want this pain any longer. i want to go to sleep and never wake up...

    this song sums up everything right now.

    Asleep - Emily Browning
  12. lightbeam

    lightbeam Antiquities Friend

    :hug: Super hugs!!!

    I hope you can make it through Sam!
  13. chewbacca

    chewbacca Well-Known Member

    what do you mean.... serpentine soul?
  14. eagle

    eagle Well-Known Member

    huggles sam, text me if and when you need me!!!! thats an order!
  15. Butterfly

    Butterfly Sim Addict Staff Alumni SF Author SF Supporter

    Sam im so sorry you are feeling crap hun and sorry I am not about as much to talk to you properly. But you have my mobile number. If you are feeling crappy please drop me a text you know I am always here for you. I love you lots hunni bunch xxxxx
  16. Petal

    Petal SF dreamer Staff Member Safety & Support SF Supporter

    Talk to the crisis team at your local hospital if possible, they will understand how you are feeling, or call a crisis line, email the samaritans at or befrienders, befrienders,org.
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