I've hit rock bottom. I joined this forum on september 19/2008 with intentions of seeking support for my gambling addiction. I've only been gambling for less than 2 years and I've lost so much. I've dropped out of university to take up gambling full time. I really regret making that decision. I told myself I'd return to school once I was financial stable. Around Oct/Nov I was winning a lot of money >$10000 I thought at that rate I was winning I'd become a millionaire in no time. But easy come, easy go. I lost everything. I couldn't believe how quick it was gone. After that I decided to seek help and I found a job to keep me busy. It was so hard, I couldn't stand making $10 an hour working 9 hours a day. I was making as much to $1000 a day at the casino. Next thing you know I was back at the casino. I borrowed thousands from my mom and brother. I still haven't paid them back. The bank keeps calling me, I have hundreds in unpaid cell phone bills, $20000 in school loans, mortgage payments, car payments. I don't have a cent to my name. I feel like shit everyday. I'm in way over my head. Every night before I go to sleep I wish I don't wake up. I decided to give one last fight and this week i've applied to several jobs and I hope I land one. I really want to change..