crash, burn, no energy, tense, stressed, depressed, not sleeping, not able to eat, so down, no motivation for anything. I don't even want people to be near me, i don't want anyone to care for me. I want to be left alone in my bedroom, curtains closed, room dark. Nightmares are getting worse again, flashbacks are back with a force again. I woke couldn't breath, i woke again no feeling down the right side of my body, leg..leg is now dead. head is hurting its kiling me. i've cried. officially a mess. what have I done to deserve this, i don't have the energy to fight anymore. I don't have anything. no idea what I have to do but it appears from what i'm being told that i'm getting worse and quite quickly. is it game over, it feels so much like it. I need a friend, someone to talk too..there's no one around. I need to hear a friendly voice, but there's no one around. I'm falling, i've fallen. I need help, i'm calling, shouting, but no one around. i'm on my own. I can no longer do this. there's nothing left.