Game Theory

Discussion in 'Poet's Corner' started by BelovedDreamer, Oct 22, 2006.

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  1. BelovedDreamer

    BelovedDreamer Well-Known Member

    Who could imagine that death lasts so much longer than life.
    I am starting to wonder how many times a heart can break.
    I feel so brittle
    There is very little bend left in me anymore.
    These memories are a sickness in me.
    They burden my heart and make lead of my limbs.
    If I could run from them I would
    But they follow me wherever I go
    A myriad of shadows of places I have been
    And people I have loved and moments I have lost
    Or am still in the process of losing.
    What is there but this?
    This awful, dreadful endless nothing
    And its accompanying grief.
    There are people out there who struggle to live
    Even as struggle to die
    And wound myself with my warring halves.
    I have recently realized that there is nothing better than this
    This is all there is
    All there is to people
    All there is to life
    A great length of disappointments, and let-downs,
    And rising-only-to-fall, and gaining-only-to-lose,
    And selfishness, and callousness, and ignorance, and greed.
    I don’t understand
    I just don’t understand why we do the things we do.
    I want to believe the best of people
    But every time I lose.
    If life is a game
    Then I hate the rules.
  2. _nu

    _nu Well-Known Member

    i'd like to find a cheat code, like invisibility.
  3. That is soooooo well expressed, and so painful to read. Too much rings true and it makes me want to cry... The last 2 lines are just stunning

  4. theleastofthese

    theleastofthese SF Friend Staff Alumni

    Dearly Beloved;

    You continually top your own best efforts!:smile: Your wellspring of feeling is deep, as is your despair.:sad: But take heart, dearly Beloved, you ARE loved :smile: and you ARE supposed to be here,:smile: expressing your feelings, and ours as well.:smile: Damn, you're good at writing poetry!!:smile: :smile: You ought to be published somewhere, you ought!:wink:

    I take issue with your feelings tho, cause as depressed as I am sometimes, I know in my heart that there is more, and better, to life than just disappointment and sorrow and letdowns. There is. I just wish I could find your "betters": better days, better moods, better friends, better fortune. If I could, I surely would, cause you are my friend, you are, for life, forever!:smile:

    I hope you're feeling some better than you were when you wrote this - as beautiful as it is sad. Much love and comfort and hope to you.:smile:


    least xoxoxox
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