Hello everybody. My story may be a little different in that I love my life and do not want it to end. I have a wonderful and loving wife who has always been by my side. I have been blessed BUT... Five months ago, I had a gastric bypass knowing that there can be *unpredictable* side effects. Mine is that I can not eat at all anymore, above and beyond the desired result. The doctors know that I am losing weight too fast and I am unable to get nutrients beyond multivitamins. I have had 4 small bowls of soup in the last 5 or 6 days but this has been a continuous issue. Several times, I have been to the doctors asking for help, but to make an already long story short, the doctors basically said that there is nothing they can do other than keep threatening me with a feeding tube. They keep telling me that this will pass but it just keeps getting worse. I am getting physically weak. I know I'm malnourished. I have lost so much muscle mass along with the fat. The hunger pains are driving me literally crazy and the pains have spread into my abdomen which the doctors have been quite concerned over but there are other reasons which make a much longer letter over why I do not want to be readmitted AGAIN. I was in less than a month ago and almost died due to blood loss (4 bags) over a bleeding ulcer. I temporarily lost my vision and I could not stand anymore. The feeling is not something that I have the words to describe. There are other reasons and complications as well. The point being, my pain and suffering have exceeded my ability to cope with them. My prayers go unanswered, and all my best ideas to cope with the pain fall short or make the problem worse. If anybody has experienced something similar and came through it, I could really use the knowledge of how you came through it all. There is so much more to this but I am attempting to be brief and concise.