i dropped out of high school right before the end of 12th grade. i wasn't going to graduate so i just stopped going one day. now that was a few years ago and i have never had such low self esteem. i haven't really done anything since. it was my "dream" or whatever you want to call it, to become an art therapist. that requires a masters degree... lol what doesnt help is that my husband recently started college and he is doing great and his parents are supportive and so proud and he is so awesome in everyone's eyes, has so many friends and is so smart and strong and blah blah blah he also just got a new job on top of that and has an awesome resume blah blah. he definitely is gonna amount to something, be successful and all that other shit. he doesn't need any more positive experiences. he has had more then fucking enough. i'm really resentful. i have not been pulling my weight whatsoever since i dropped out. i don't have a job and the only thing i can hope for is to get hired at one of these little ghetto stores around here and barely pull minimum wage and probably get robbed and maybe raped on the way home bc i also don't have a car or a US license and don't particularly live in a nice area. i knew i needed my GED and im determined to get, i HAVE to, but i am absolutely XXX when it comes to math. i cant do the most simple things. and i mean really the most simple. every time i sit my ass down to study for it, i get so fucking depressed. start crying, hurt myself and then lay on the kitchen floor for the rest of the day starring at the wall and am nothing but one big stinking pile of apathetic shit. and it remains that way for days, to the point where i don't want to look at it at all, which doesn't help my situation. and i'm thinking, if i get this stressed out and depressed over the GED, how on earth am i supposed to go to and through college lol its a big fat joke. i would never even be accepted. please... and basically i remember what a stupid, worthless piece of shit i am and that i will always be a nothing, never someone you would respect, someone valuable. when i tell people this, most of the time i get the answer that i am someone since i'm married so im such and such's wife and i will have a family so i will be a mother ladida. so what if i ever get divorced, what am i then. that cant define me as a person. i would always be nothing. that isnt an achievement. enough of the bitching now. what i really am asking for is some people's experiences with their GED and if you had the same feelings of inadequacy and were struggling kind of like me. or if i am the only loser here.