Pretty much like the title says. Does anyone on the forum has any kind of experience with gender confusion or identity issues? I've been dealing with it for a far back as I can remember. I started experimenting with cross dressing around the age of 7 or 8. From there it's carried into sexual fantasies of wanting to be a female. Although it shouldn't be confused, not every time I day dream about being female is it in a sexual way or arousing way. All these feelings seem to wax and wane, coming in waves is the best way I can describe it. Some days I'm content in being a male, other days I feel suicidal at the idea I may never be female. I've never seem a therapist about it but I've been toying with the notion of doing so lately. I'm a recent recovering alcoholic, been sober for a little over two years. Spent about five years drinking. Of course I didn't start out as heavy drinker but I did let it progress to about a liter of vodka a day habit. Eventually ending up with me in the E.R. and subsequently hospitalized. Went with withdrawal and the D.T.s Now that I am sober I'm really wanting to seek out more help as these gender issues seem to be a constant and reoccurring problem. So much so that it affects my happiness at time. Some days I don't even want to get out of bed...let alone wake up. I would love to hear anyone else's experience with this; as well as anyone else's thoughts either about GID or about what I'm feeling, concerning my own self identity.