My whole life, Ive always hated myself and I've always felt worthless because I'm a girl. I think being a girl is embarassing. Sometimes I will be watching tv or doing some standard daily chore, and the fact that I'm a girl will cross my mind and I'll just break down and cry. I've been a theoretical boy my whole life so I dont know how to be a girl. And now that I'm an adult being a girl who acts like a boy seems to be frowned upon. Then on top of that I dont even look like a girl. and it's not that I dont wear girl clothes or makeup its just that i've been sitiophobic/anorexic for so long nobody makes clothes that fit me. I have no boobs or ass, which is fine with me. Because I think they're ugly anyway. But other people dont seem to feel the same way. all my clothes hang weird and dont fit right because I dont fill them out. And when I go shopping I find myself wondering if really skinny boys have the same problem. The only guys that hit on me are gay. And of course once they hear me talk and realize I'm actually a girl I get "omg, I thought you were a boy! i'm sorry!" Which is either extremely amusing or extremely insulting depening on my mood. Straight guys dont want to date me because I'm "one of the boys" And I generally just feel like shit all the time. I have no place and sometimes i have a hard time dealing with it. i cant talk about it because nobody understands how i feel and its too hard to explain. I tried to go to bed tonight at 1am but I coudln't sleep and I can't beleive it is now 5:53 am and i'm still up thinking about this. anyway, i guess i was just curious to see if anyone else hates their gender. this turned out longer than i wanted it to be.