Currently, things seem to be digressing. I haven't had a job in over half a year and my family has been talking shit behind my back. My sister & father hates me. My mother is the only one that seems to have some positive out look on my lifestyle, but fuck, from things in the past, I had hated her the most.
What a fucking twist! I mean shit, she use to beat me, and now I look to her for comfort. It's not like I'm failing at life, I feel a bit ashamed of how some things are turning, but for the most part, I'm doing well in college and I have man who takes care of me, never talks down to me or calls me ugly... Tells me he loves me everyday, hugs and kisses everyday, its like some one picked me up from the shit hole I use to live in.
and yet, I feel just as suicidal as before. In addition, I've developed a very strong anxiety, which sometimes feels like a pathetic excuse when your trying to tell someone reasons why you can't do certain things,... Their response is ''Oh, So you're scared.", its like, no fuck...!
But In everything in all it's glory, it's got to have a downfall somehow...
In short. Nothing every changes, Everything is as fucked up as it ever was.s
I feel like this giraffe! Which by the way I thought was freaking cute, so I'm going to put it in my post... He's so angry! He's kicking the floor. (actually, I think he's dancing.) Depends on your prespective... Are you optimistic? Or pessimistic.
:Leiaha: :Leiaha: :Leiaha: :Leiaha: :Leiaha: :Leiaha:
What a fucking twist! I mean shit, she use to beat me, and now I look to her for comfort. It's not like I'm failing at life, I feel a bit ashamed of how some things are turning, but for the most part, I'm doing well in college and I have man who takes care of me, never talks down to me or calls me ugly... Tells me he loves me everyday, hugs and kisses everyday, its like some one picked me up from the shit hole I use to live in.
and yet, I feel just as suicidal as before. In addition, I've developed a very strong anxiety, which sometimes feels like a pathetic excuse when your trying to tell someone reasons why you can't do certain things,... Their response is ''Oh, So you're scared.", its like, no fuck...!
But In everything in all it's glory, it's got to have a downfall somehow...
In short. Nothing every changes, Everything is as fucked up as it ever was.s
I feel like this giraffe! Which by the way I thought was freaking cute, so I'm going to put it in my post... He's so angry! He's kicking the floor. (actually, I think he's dancing.) Depends on your prespective... Are you optimistic? Or pessimistic.
:Leiaha: :Leiaha: :Leiaha: :Leiaha: :Leiaha: :Leiaha: