get it off your chest...

Discussion in 'Mental Health Disorders' started by scouse 0_o katie, Dec 9, 2009.

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  1. scouse 0_o katie

    scouse 0_o katie New Member

    this is just somewhere where u can write somthing that is stressing you out and making you feel depressed right now....ill go first.. the reason im upset&stressed out right now is my bf.. for thinking exsuces are answers :blub:
  2. aoeu

    aoeu Well-Known Member

    I'm broke and incapable of working, and the disability support office won't return my calls. I can't afford anti-depressants until I get in touch with them and get something worked out. :(
  3. Colourful

    Colourful Well-Known Member

    I'm bored and alone in my room. I have no friends to do anything with.
  4. bubblin girl

    bubblin girl Well-Known Member

    im depressed & in pain cos I remmber how all my life 12 year at school & this is the 5th at uni so 17 years people are making fun of me...that so painful...& cos im so stupid.
  5. nok1888

    nok1888 Well-Known Member

    5th year at uni, you are far from stupid x
  6. bubblin girl

    bubblin girl Well-Known Member

    its not uni...i go 1st year at uni...then change to another college where i get in to 3 years programs and this is the 4th and i didnt finish yet...and your common is not funny really...hope you dont make fun of me again XX
  7. nok1888

    nok1888 Well-Known Member

    Im not making fun of you. I just said you've managed 17 years of schooling which is a great achievement so your not stupid. I only managed 12 years of schooling. Now im having to go back to college to try and get a job.

    Believe me I wasnt making fun of you, you should be proud of what you have achieved
  8. TWF

    TWF Well-Known Member

    So much work to go through... Better do it before its impossible to fit in.
  9. bubblin girl

    bubblin girl Well-Known Member

    okay noproblem...

    good luck ...hope you do good and college & get a good job...

    i didnt realy manage 17 years cos im the same child who everybody make fun of and time or years didnt make easier...i cant be proud cos i spend douple of what i should spend at college and still didnt graduate yet and i just recently got my grads back i failed in a course...but thanks for lefting me up & your kind words...
  10. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    chest pain so much emotions too much don' t know whats wrong just can't breath to well. oh what is wrong i don't know maybe just need to go back to bed for awhile maybe thats all.
  11. keo09

    keo09 Active Member

    things what do my head in are social workers doctors ect they go round talking about you like your not even real
  12. Sparky55313

    Sparky55313 Well-Known Member

    Thinking I'll be alone again this holiday season and being broke.
  13. scouse 0_o katie

    scouse 0_o katie New Member

    its only 3 days till christmas an i feel worse everyday.. i cnt stop thinking about jst ending my life.. i spend like hours with my mind raceing at night with stress.. an the thought of killing myself is the only one that calms me sometimes :sad:
  14. Mikeintx

    Mikeintx Well-Known Member

    The reason I am upset and stressed is due to trolls on suicide forums :blub:
  15. Scully

    Scully Well-Known Member

    I don't know what I'll do with my life, professionally speaking. I write but it's hard to live from it. And for the rest, I seem to be inapt to be with people if the atmosphere isn't warm and anthentic. Each time I find a job, I end up in burn out months after. The therapy is long.

    My couple is shit, honestly, I went to search for my own xmas gift. I don't care about gifts but here... I dunno. I'm still an honest and generous persn, and still want to be, but it feels very very sad to look around. People are selfish and cupid.

    I don't even hate Chris carter, or my father, or both, difficult to explain. I hate no one. Not only that I don't want to, but I can't. I'm angry at times, but it never really lasts long. I have insecurities, but no hate. Except for myself, at times.

    I'm sick and it doesn't help feeling good of course. Not talking about BDP but the sort of flu (one week I've been sick so far).

    I wish for a miracle at xmas, know the truth for good, on my origins, myown, not the origins of time lol I wish for a quiet and loving time, and see people forgive instead. GIve, not "gifts" but love, even through gifts.
  16. .Tom

    .Tom Member

    no friends no job never leave the house leech of my parents stay on computer literally 24/7 on forums

    no life. no reason to live. :(
  17. Krem

    Krem Well-Known Member

    I have a few people I interact with at all, and they are hardly friendly. One is a drug-addicted slut, one is a cruel, uncaring "troll", two are manic and mad, and the last one is a shrewd, manipulative girl who is incapable of leaving my thoughts. I am incapable of studying, for I have never needed to, yet my grades are getting worse. I have a supportive family, somewhat, but who refuse to admit I have a problem. Since I was a child I have been hounded, mocked and avoided-- I was stoned over 5 times from 1st to 3rd grade, and none of my so-called peers did anything to help me (Age 5ish-7ish). My tastes and interests are bizarre to those around me, often to the extend of offending their tastes. I have been with doctors from before I can remember, and yet they revealed nothing to me. If I have been diagnosed with anything, my parents would know, but refuse to tell me. My social maturity is, to say the least, lacking, and thus I am unaware of whatever social crimes I comitt, until I am mocked and/or punished for them. Even then, I am unaware of what I have done wrong. I am also a coward, the thought of physical pain is enough to invoke dread. Loud noises, unexpected noises, fast movement, it is all enough to make me, as they say, 'jump'. I have been in fights, but I have not fought back, for fear of 'angering' them. I hardly taste anymore, and my fat, grotesque body is cold and numb all the time. My skin is dry, and bleeds easily- My scalp, forehead and eyebrows are falling away in flakes. My eyesight is getting worse, my balance is getting worse, my hands shake, my hand-to-eye coordination is getting worse, and, worst of all, my thinking is getting worse. I am forgetting more and more, from events to words, I often fail to solve problems, to see what should be obvious. I am cought in my own lies, even if they serve no purpose. Often I have lied before I realise it, with mundane things to fancy, unimportant tails. I am scared of growing up, because I know I will not function. Bodily hair disgusts me, the slightest hint of age horrifies me. I wish to stay a child, to live without knowing, without responsibilities, free of thought and social standards, to simply play all day, to be taken care of, every need sated, with thought limited to what I shall do with my playmates this day. I preach virtues I can not follow, I tell people not to do things, or openly judge them for doings things which I know I would do. I tell people I am not interested in sex, that I find real people not sexually attractive, which is only half-truth. I do not find most people sexually attractive, but I have seen some older teens which are, physically, sexually attractive. But the problem is that I have a deep lack of trust towards other. I do enjoy what rare hugs I can get, but when people touch me in areas I am not used to being touched, for an example my face, lower back, arse, thighs, it is uncomfortable. This, added with the fact that I am somewhat ashamed of my body, makes me too feel uncomfortable for coitus, if I ever would have the oppurtunity, and yet I am a heavy user of pornography, mostly text and drawn images. In addition, I am often unable to see people as people, I forget they have emotions of their own. Outside, when I see someone getting hurt, even badly, I feel nothing. All I saw was a piece of meat. Should someone I know get hurt, all I would see is how it affects me. This is not true for fictional characters, however, for I see them as more real than actual people. I am, aswell, highly paranoid. If I hear someone laughing, I assume it is because of me. When I am outside, I look around me all the time, in fear of an assailant. If someone compliment me, I never believe them, I always believe they are mocking me. If someone were to invite me for something, I would believe it was to trick me into doing whatever vile, sick things they do. I often believe all of you, every single one, is together in some network of jests, against me, using me as your puppet-toy, pulling my strings and laughing at the resault you get.

    Well, that was it, for now. This self-pity is pathetic, I know, but I still enjoy it somewhat. Maybe this is my way of attention-seeking, who knows.

    -Edit- Holy crap that was long.
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  18. TBear

    TBear Antiquities Friend

    I've walled myself in - lonely
    I yearn for emotional intimacy and connection
    That closeness is too intense for me and hurts
    I don't want to be alone - I can't tolerate people caring
    The past has left me never trusting that anyone can care and not hurt me
  19. melosine

    melosine Active Member

    I have nothing going for me. Im ugly inside and out, no personality or brains, not pretty, no talents, just blah! I hate myself. I put myself in every bad situation and now I'm stuck with a crappy life. I want out already.
  20. Scully

    Scully Well-Known Member

    I feel hyperactive while I'm bored to death with myself and everything. I don't know what to do, caml down for an hour and watch TV.
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