It seems everyday I have to go through routines to keep my mood from bottoming out. I get so sick of it. If I take a day off and try to just relax, watch tv, I'll becoming horribly depressed. I have to actually do certain things everyday or I'll find myself back in a hole. I'm just getting sick of the constant struggle with it. I'm already on meds, but I fear I'm just delaying the inevitable.