Hi all. I just wanna say that up until 3 months ago I was a big mess. I used to be taking drugs like coke, speed and x and was suicidal pretty much most of the time. Then I said to myself I am not givin' up just yet. Fuck that. I ain't gonna waste my life. Not yet. I met a girl which I'm with right now and she showed me the bright side of life. I realize I'm walking on thin ice but as for now I'm ok. My psychiatrist prescribed me some pills but I put them away after 2 days of taking them. I didn't like what they did to me. I wanna stay clean off any shit. U know what? I realized that everybody need to find their purpose. Your life needs to have a PURPOSE. U gotta find it if u wanna feel better. My purpose is to have a family, kids, home, day job, sunday BBQs and all that stuff I never had. I visualize myself having all that and it keeps me going. I never look back. Not no more. It's just me right here, right now. And I look into the future. God bless you all!