I'm recently coming out of a major depressive episode. I have new meds, a new DR that I really like and is hopeful for me and I have a great therapist. Luckily also, I have a great partner - I don't know where I'd be without him. But I'm having trouble getting things back together. I think I'm coming out of the depression, but maybe it's still there more that I think. The suicidal thoughts aren't as intense. But I just can't motivate myself to get up and get things done. I can't work, so I have a mostly unstructured day. I stay up late at night watching TV so that I wake up late in the day because I'm still having problems making it thru the day. I'm still mostly numb and feel flat, but not in a deep deep suicidal depression. But I don't really feel anything close to happiness. I know that I"m not functioning at a level where I was. When I'm doing ok, I get up and make the most of my day. I can leave the house, go to the store, meet a friend, etc. Somewhat of a "normal" life. I don't know if I"m putting too much presure on myself to "get back up and go" again or am I just being lazy? I know that motivation doesn't always come from within and we have do start doing things before we are motivated to continue. But I'm just in this limbo. And I fear what my life will continue to be like. I'm in my 30's, had a career, etc, but lost it all 3 years ago. I WANT to get up and go, but I don't know when to push myself and when to just take it easy. I am just asking others if they have experienced this or if this makes sense and if you, if you have any suggestions?? :blink: :blink: :blink: How do i get it back together?