During the last 2 years my life has turned from a pretty fulfilled existence into a nightmare.Without going into detail here all I can say is that I suffered so many setbacks and disasters that I still sometimes wonder whether this all can be real. Job,health,everything has turned into a mess and I cannot see any way out.I am increasingly desperate,which is not at all my normal nature,as I am normally a fairly resilient person.But too many knock downs have left their marks. I am glad to be here,though on my first day in the chat room I was approached in a private message by somebody who was a about to take their live in real time,as I was chatting. It was certainly no hoax and it has disturbed me considerably as the person on the other end was in a terrible situation and I had not much to offer for conciliation. I am not sure what happened then as the writing became more and more blurred and finally stopped. Anyway,I am glad to be here. I hope with all my heart that my life does not fall apart even more. So far I had practically no influence on what happened to me. But I am not ready to give up yet. Sorry for ranting on so long. Merry Christmas to everybody.