When your young you take your health for granted, your not going to get old! But it creeps up on you, if your healthy then it's a doddle, but when bending over becomes an extreme sport and quite often ends up with your back going into spasm, not so much. I suppose up until a few years ago l took it all for granted as well as l hadn't had any major illnesses, but each year bring the worry of something going seriously wrong. For your 60th birthday you get a bowel cancer screening kit. I didn't fill in that one after reading the instructions, rifling through poo first thing in the morning just didn't appeal for some reason. However when another arrived and there was a big advertisement campaign on TV about it, l finally gave in and completed it. Of the joy when l received another to fill in as the first one was inconclusive. That came back ok, but they still weren't satisfied and l had to do a third test. That one came back as abnormal and l now have to go and be assessed for an colonoscopy. My mum died of cancer, which spread to her bowel and she ended up with a coloscomy and an ilioscomy. Now l worry that the back pain l experience is something more sinister. Am l urinating too often, l know l won't drink that way l won't go and l can pretend it's ok. The trouble is, when I'm worried or stressed l do go more often so it's the old chicken and egg routine. I joined the gym, l think l went a few times, l got a hamstring injury, so now it's the chiropractor again and some acupuncture. It's all so tiring. Twice in the last few weeks l have lost time off work through my back/hip going into spasm, it went into spasm just by my sitting on the loo! Sometimes l long to just not wake up, just let me go quietly in my sleep l pray.