Well I haven't been on this website in a while which hasn't been great, I wish I'd kept visiting everyday because I've had some severely low points, I'm still here so that's something good I guess. I've been on Sertraline for a couple months now I think, recently got my dosage upped to twice a day, and so far it's been helping at least one day a week and I'm glad I'm somewhat progressing. I've also been going out more, just with family to help with the shopping and going on the bus myself, facing my fear of the bus and feeling insanely anxious in public places, I'm getting there and I don't feel AS anxious but again it's more progress. Still really hate being so close to other people, every time I find myself in a line in a shop (Not by myself yet), the person behind me always feels the need to be so close that you could fit a toothpick between us without it falling. One thing at a time. The thing I'm struggling with most is the whole job thing, searching for one and having to visit so many different places just to obtain a sliver of a chance of bagging myself a job, it's taking a hell of a toll on me, so much so that I've made the decision to put my goal of getting into an admin job on the back burner until I'm stable enough to handle and not fail in the role I ultimately want to be in. That'll be the case until my first CBT appointment which could be months away, massive waiting list, so that kind of sucks. That's why I'm doing my best to improve in the meantime though. As previously mentioned I'm starting CBT whenever I receive the letter, so I wouldn't say I'm "looking forward" to it and it's more of a case of I'm open to whatever help I can get and if that could come sooner rather than later? Yeah...that would be "Great". I just want to be able to live life actually wanting to be here.