Getting through the night

[Thinnerthanair]

I don't know how to do it. My mind is raging and keeps hauntig me with thoughts that hurt and disturb me. I can't stop thinking about it. I'm so angry, these thoughts are eating me up. I have to relive it over and over just to feel the pain again.
Ive been laying awake (next to the bed, I don't want to sleep in a bed tonight) for hours, I have a pounding head ache and I'm so tired.
I'm so overwhelmed with feelings and I don't know where to put them. I can't express myself, I'm just speechless, helpless, apathic. Only my mind won't shut up.
I really don't know what to do right now, I feel too much. I just want it to stop.
Unfortunately I was stupid enough to go on leave here right at the time that everything turned up side down for me, I have no where to go.

 

[WildCherry]

Would it help to post any of your feelings, try to get some of it out?

 

[LoveBeing]

Hi Thinnerthanair,

It IS possible to become free of our mind - go beyond our own and others’ thoughts, opinions, judgements, memories of the past, projections of the future…

We can start by observing the mind…

Here is a video clip which you may find helpful:

Eckhart Tolle - To Think Or Not To Think
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E7EKDar3_aM

Maybe you will find the book “The Power of Now” by Eckhart Tolle helpful. (This book has helped and transformed many people’s lives. The author Eckhart used to be suicidal but now lives a real peaceful life.) Here is a link to free download of the book in PDF (see page 8 for the story about his suicidal experience):

http://www.holybooks.com/wp-content/uploads/The-Power-Of-Now-EckhartTolle.pdf

And here is a forum (also free) if you have any questions about the book:

http://eckhart-tolle-forum.inner-growth.info/viewforum.php?f=23


Wish you well!