why should i have to live for my mother. two of us live together alone. my sisters are married and have there own kids and family and i'm left to stay here. she does not appreciate the fact i try so hard to keep things together. i always the bad one, the black sheep, my sisters are superior to me. i could off killed myself a couple of years ago. but here i am still because of her. they take it for granted everyday but know there is something is wrong with me. its not fair. sooner or later i will take action i cannot keep going for much longer. there are probably two decades to ago before she expires and that is eternity for me. everyday is shit. but i am still here now, but for how long?