Hey all just throwing my mind out on the forums cause writing is the only thing that relieves my mind X) What can u do when something bad happend to keep going? When u tried evrything. Get a good job. buy your own house. have friends. And still for me it doesnt make life worthwhile. I miss my dad to mutch. I would do evrything to see him again, To make him coffee. To drive him to hospital even and sit there I always had trouble to keep going but he was always there evry min. Called evry day. When he passed away. Its like he took my last bit of hope of happiness away with him And i know he wants me to keep going. But whats the point. Ive seen people in ways u shouldnt. I know what people can do to each other. And i seen what people do when there alone (think there alone) This world is a sick world. why do we torment ourselfs by wasting time on this world? Some people say u should go to god and ask him? My answer to that is where is god? God has never been there for me unless he made me survive the multi attempts i did. Why does he want me to keep suffering. So no i do not believe in god. As i would not want to believe someone can be that evil. I tried to help people the best i can. Offer money. Do things for them from doing shopping to drive miles and miles. Dealt with crisises of others. Or listen to them. In the end. You are alone in the world. and maybe if ur lucky u find that one person witch in my case was my dad . That is always there for u at any time at any need. No matter what. But that came to an end. and now im alone once again. I dunno how long i can keep fighting anymore.