Hello, recently my thoughts of suicide have become more and more frequent and I have began to humor the idea that I would be able to escape before I actually died, just to see how painful it would be... I guess it all started about a month ago after I got dumped, went through all the normal phases as you do. However I keep repeating them over and over constantly. One second I will be accepting of what happened, half hour latter i'll just be depressed, another half hour later I'll be self-harming, one more half an hour later and i'll be contemplating suicide and then I'd spend some time trying to convince myself to gather the courage to do it. The only thing that keeps me from ever going through with it or at least at the moment is the thought of how much grief it would cause my family. My self-harm is gradually increasing in severity as is my depression. At times I'm not even sure how I feel anymore, I just want to end everything. I have an appointment with my doctor on Wednesday but honestly that's a long time away.