how do you deal with the times when you have so many words in your mind, you have so many conversations taking place but only you can hear them, believing you can hear something, but nobody else can....feeling your going insane, maybe you are insane. is my life over, have i given up the fight....the thoughts of suicide are just as distressing as the first time, the last time, the times I have acted, the times I haven't acted...People can believe that if you live with the thoughts it gets easier, it doesn't..it never lessens the grip it has over your whole life....and I do believe that it will be through my own hands that my life ends and that disturbs me too cause I can't or don't know how to control the thoughts, or stop me from ending this life. Darkness falls the devil calls shadows gone time to begone The light has vanished the girls been punished. she tried to reach out already layin in the blackout the tunnel had no light the girl lost her fight tried to say that she was dying everyone said she was lying Silence surrounded her as the day got darker noone able to reach her the girl felt no safer the girl just couldn't take anymore, no more violent blows holding secrets nobody knows so alone, so low. along came the words she longed to hear the voice so loud and so clear I can make it all disappear, for me you need not fear "promise me your soul this you can control" "promise me your commitment" echoed the words of satan pulled further into dispair he was right the girl can't repair the strength from the demons the pain just never lessens she called, she tried the girl had already died alone she sat in the darkness her mind, body lifeless. left in the darkness was the girl in crisis.