i know this girl. and i used to love her. but then i figured out she didn't love me. she loved my best friend. so i started drinking. I'm pretty sure i'm bi-polar or somthin like that. cuz sometimes i'm happy and i don't even know how i could ever think about commiting suicide, and i feel slightly ignorant to the world around me. and sometimes i don't know how i could ever feel happy at all. and i look at all these people who are my age and how they are so obsessed with fitting in with all the other people who are obsessed with fitting in by buying their expensive clothing that is way over priced just because of the big name- brand patch branded right on the front of it. oh yeah, about that girl. she never wore that stuff. she, like me, didn't want to support the capitalist pigs that run the corperations that made the clothing. Or maybe she just didn't have the money. i don't know and i don't care cuz she is the most beautiful thing i have ever seen.