I failed. I'm a failure. I was trying so hard. But I gave up. I gave in. I did it. I'm sorry. I didn't mean to disappoint anyone. I know I shouldn't have. But I didn't know what else to do. I tried alternatives. I called people. I listened to music. I tried posting to distract myself. Nothing worked. i just cant do this no more.i dont want him to win,but i cant deal with this pain anymore. god im sorry.