I have been suffering from chronic depression since my early 20's and now I'm in my mid 30's. I gotten this far because of my persistent to move on and try to think positive despite all of the negative that has happened around me. I have crashed hard in some earlier years but forced myself to pick me up again only for life to fail on me more worse than I could possibly expect. I don't know what it is about my life that makes it so difficult for me to find a solution for. Every aspect of my life whether it be with jobs, family, friends, etc has failed on me. I try so hard on my end to achieve the goals that normal people do, but I always am at the short end of the stick, the worst position people wouldn't hate to see themself in. Just recently I tried to start a new "hobby" and again the repeated bad experiences and results that has always plagued my life ended up in worse, negative outcome than I could possibly imagine, making me give up all hope once in for all. I need a miracle, someone to save me. Someone save my life please.