ok i've been suicidal for a while now, i've just been waiting so that i can perfectly plan it, i wrote a suicide note, i sent it to everyone on my email contact list. if i go back on it now, noone will ever see me the same again, thats why i did it, to push me to do it. i really have given up on life, i can't go through it anymore. no friends, no hobbies, anything, i have nothing anymore. i had a boyfriend for 3 months but he won't talk to me anymore, even when he said i could always talk to him about anything, he just gave me no reason for not talking to me. i was very confused until i realised it must be my fault. it just hit me, i've always done that, everything is always my fault, i'm not normal so people treat me differently, they take advantage of me because i'm a weak person. i don't want to put up with it anymore. i just needed somewhere to vent and someone to listen to me, seeing as noone else will.