I've been having severe suicidal thoughts for two weeks solid 24/7. Its horrific as im sure you know. Its not the first time i've bin in this place i've been having thoughts for over a year but plans for around 6months. I planned again for monday but got stopped by my care-coordinator bloke who rang me. I really cant hack this shit anymore im so desperate to dissappear. im so alone. not physically, i have fam and friends. but really. They know everything but cant make it any better. thats down to me. and i do everythin im told. therapy councilling working so on and so on and nada, nothin, makes it any better. No one seems to understand how stupidly difficult life is just to be here. Its such a chore. and a painful one. I feel like day by day im jus waiting for my life to lead me to death. So suicidal right now. I have work in an hour and i just want to scream and cry and runaway. I would totally runaway but cant afford it hahah! :cry: i'd say help me but i know u guys cant. Its gta come from me. and i jus dont have the strength anymore..