I had a nightmare. it wasn't a nightmare actually until i woke up. I'm just reliving things over and over again. I wake up and realise and that's when it's awful. I go through phases of giving things away and cancelling plans for the future include post grad study and plans to travel because I just can't see myself going through with it. I'm barely aware of it and I'm sure if I poked at it I'd realise what it really means. does anyone else do this? Last time I went through this I gave soem valuable things away and i regretted it. but giving things away makes me feel better, it makes me feel that I'm closer to the end, even if i have no solid plans. It makes me feel like I'm doing something practical. I am not going to enjoy it anyway.