Unfortunately, for nearly 2 years my life has not been so good. I've been bullied in the past and never had real friends. Yet the first "real" friends I made (well, rather they approached me) they abandoned me almost 2 months ago. One cited my negativity, the other claimed I took advantage of her. I've been to the hospital twice. The first time was because I overdosed (not in a serious amount) and the second was because I had plans to overdose again. It really does hurt being alone. I joined web sites to find friends and I had no luck. Can someone please try to explain to me why all of this happened to me recently despite the fact I had a painful past before I met these two friends? I don't know how you could, really, it's probably more of a rhetorical question. But it certainly is hard for me to see people on TV surrounded with friends. I do feel like overdosing again sometimes. I wish I could have friends... I don't know what else to do.