I am back in town one of the workers fell of a tractor had to bring him to hospital. So F%^&* ironic First I cant get on the net then I get the chance then here is no one online.The past few days/weeks have been really itense and I dont know why Ican find a reason to go on living,am I insane patehtic crazy? I dont know dont really care it does not really matter! Talking here on SF seems to calm me but ironicaly right now there is no one to calm me to talk some sense to give me something to hold on to.Its just me and my toughts and every minute my toughts my anger hoplessness grows stronger!!!!! I am lost cant find meaning what do I hang onto Why ????????????????????? Does not really matter by the time anybody if any replys I will be offline. They say you get what you deserve!!!!!!!!!!!!