hi hun .. .. i am so sorry you are feeling so low, so sad, so down : ( poor poor you.
i cannot imagine anyone hitting you. period. in the face! and your dad! no way. how bad is THAT!?!
i know that at times, sometimes at MANY times, it seems as if there is no point at going on. but. there is a reason some of us end up here on s.f. and i think it is because we all want to live. we just do NOT want to HURT!
i am thinking of you. stay here with us. go make some popcorn (or peas and mash) and lie low. watch bad t.v. , keep s.f. on your computer, meditate, pray, do crossword puzzles, just hang. chill. wait. hang on. there are a lot of lovely things in life - and i think that possibly - if you are in great pain - it may help you better appreciate great joy - later on. just a thought. just my opinion. but regardless, i care about you.
hugs