I have already posted in the support forum for people in crises. I have been married for not quite 25 years. Almost since day one I have been emotionally, physically and mentally abused by my husband. I have been pushed and pushed and can't seem to deal with life anymore. I lay in bed at night trying to fall asleep and can feel his hands around my neck choking me or I can feel him hit me. I also think about , what he says to me ie Your worthless, you can't do anything right, you serve no purpose and etc etc. I guess he's right I serve no purpose on this darn earth so I have given up. I just can't deal with life anymore. Ya see I was married at the age of 17, he's the only person I know - if that makes any sense. I use to be afraid of leaving him but not any more because I have totally given up. He always threatens to Kill me anyway so what to heck if I would do it first, it's better me than him. I hope someone out there is listening because I have no purpose anymore and have nothing to offer. I'm at the end of my ropes.