I'm in a complete dead end right now. My whole life I've been through pain and suffering but I've always had dreams and hopes of a better future but now the darkness that's been building up inside me has come to it's brink. I really want to die right now, just to stop this torment. It's become so bad I can't stomach it any longer, I've been through therapy and counseling both of which haven't helped me one bit. I can't escape the fact that my real plight is the evil of us humans, not anything else. God knows I gave everything I had foolishly believing that good acts will triumph over bad. The only thing that will triumph is selfishness and ignorance. I've even had dark, dark thoughts about violence towards others and I've just come to the same conclusion... I'm not a violent person, I just can't stand the way I'm feeling anymore. Right now I'm artificially keeping myself alive by drinking everyday, nothing like some good old alcohol to numb yourself.