Thanks Clairedelune - I hope today is a little easier for you.
IV - yes, am on meds. I didn't want to take them either. Oh well! Things just change around here and today is a milestone kind of day (waiting on test results) so things are a little more tense, freaky etc.
Just keep reminding myself to keep breathing deep and similar.
Am scared, but its beyond our control, will see what this afternoon brings.
Take care.