Hello everyone! My name is Martina and I'm new to this site. I have been dealing with bipolar disorder, Borderline Personality disorder, Post Traumatic Stress disorder(from multiple rapes) and an eating disorder(mostly on the anorexic side) anyway I can't take all this stress that is going on. One of the anniversaries of my rape is Monday and I have been breaking down for the past week. I was hospitalized for a month for a suicide attempt and am having thoughts of suicide and don't know what to do. My fiance' is really supportive of me but wants to commit suicide himself and so its hard. My mom knows whats going on, my community support worker knows and so does my psychiatrist but they haven't done anything. I have a feeling they will put me back in the hospital, as well as my fiance' because we made this "death pact" which he really wants to go through with and so do I. I don't know what to do.... any support would be encouraged.