Its funny how some people are just worth more... What they say evokes more of a response no matter how desperate I my pleas or cries somehow I dont matter & thats ok... I would ignore me too some people are just so amazing its easy to feel compassion & care for them... Words & care flow freely well this cow is done done bitching moaning yearning wishing waiting & hoping trying to be independent & not care... But thats just it I do care... I hurt too I am desperate too so desperate but too bloody worthless to ask anyone to care or help sometimes its plain that all wluld be so much better off were there no I anymore... Sorry & take care.