When I dream about the person who well, it bugs me out bad too. I end up feeling like I'm drowning in tar. Shame, guilt, filth, I get it. From things I've read, when dreaming, the brain is trying to process out what we may not be willing to deal with, or haven't yet, even if we are trying to there could be aspects of the entire thing we may not even be aware of that we haven't confronted. I'm sorry you didn't have a good 4th, the fireworks bothered me too. I don't do well with loud noises, ever. How are you doing now? Have the dreams subsided? I hope so..