Seems to be my way of speaking lately, I find myself coping less and less lately, for the first time ever I actually want to cut myself, I cant cope with anythign I want it to be over and done with, I want to finally be done with it. I am so tired. Please just end it. If I could risk hurting others I would drive to my death, but no, god dham me cant risk others, I am so sick of caring, why cant I ever think about me, take what I want? Why? Why? Why? WHy? Why must I always be miserable? Why cant I just finish it Oh fuck it, I am so angry I want to swear and scream FUCK IT FUCK IT FUCK IT!