This hurts so bad! I cannot take this. I feel crushed that she is in belarus and I'm in australia. I just want to be with her. She's like my other half. I've never been so depressed because of this separation. She's just out of my reach and it's torture. I cannot stop thinking about her. I want to hold her but I can't. I swear I will never like anyone else but her. If I can't be with her it seems so tragic. I am meant to be with her. If I can't it will seem so unnatural and wrong. It seems so unlikely that I lose hope. But I cannot give up because of her. My family and the people around me. They are so wrong for me I don't like them at all. I want to get away to belarus and stay with hey. I cannot afford it. I will have no work there. I need a happy ending badly. I will never be the same otherwise. The pain is so surreal that I think why is this happening to me?! I am so glad I know of her, but now I must be with her.