Hello everyone. I am 23 years old male and have paranoid schizophrenia. This thing is a living hell and I've had it since I was 18 years old. Now this thing is making me soon commit suicide and I hope this thread as a last hope. I belive my life is getting worse and worse and the devil is playing with me. In God I trust I can meet him some day and explain what I did, why and because. My only wish is that my family will not miss me as much in this life after I lost it.