My emotions are a rollercoaster. Sometimes I hit the deep end and hurt myself but then sometimes I can’t even remember my pain it’s a little frustrating. I’m such an insecure self loathing person it’s really pathetic, the smallest thing can set me off. Today, I sent a pic of a sketch to a friend (for me I’m very insecure about my art) and they noticed an ugly sketch of mine in the back of the page... I felt embarrassed. For some reason I’m so messed up in my head that I think
she did it on purpose because she thinks she’s better than me UGHHHHHHH!!!!! I know that isn’t the case but WHY AM I CRAZY??! Anything makes me feel like crap. My insecurities make me crap and I feel guilty for thinking that of my BEST FRIEND!! AAAAAHHH!! I want to die for being so defensive and crappy! When I’m like this I take it out on everyone around me and makes me hate myself EVEN MORE. I have so much rage towards myself that can only be managed with hurting myself. Why do I always think people have a hidden agenda against me??? I’m insane! I feel like all my life will ever amount is nothing because of my crappy nature. No one would care about me dying bc of this pathetic piece of crap I am.
she did it on purpose because she thinks she’s better than me UGHHHHHHH!!!!! I know that isn’t the case but WHY AM I CRAZY??! Anything makes me feel like crap. My insecurities make me crap and I feel guilty for thinking that of my BEST FRIEND!! AAAAAHHH!! I want to die for being so defensive and crappy! When I’m like this I take it out on everyone around me and makes me hate myself EVEN MORE. I have so much rage towards myself that can only be managed with hurting myself. Why do I always think people have a hidden agenda against me??? I’m insane! I feel like all my life will ever amount is nothing because of my crappy nature. No one would care about me dying bc of this pathetic piece of crap I am.