I am such a bad person I have to be. I have so much pain in my life. Today to went to the crisis center to get paper work on my abuse took it to Kansas legal services and they said they wouldn't start the case until I pay the full amount. I get less then two hundered dollars a month and they expect me to pay nearly eight hundered dollars before starting the case. I went crisis center to get paper work and she said she wouldn't help me, and I said well why am I here then and she said how dare you be snotty to me almost started crying. then I called my grandmother and she said you don't need a divorce, what are you talking about... I need the divorce I won't be respocinle for his actions or bills and when I get my disability he can file for half of my monthly check. which would be about three hundered dollars or so. I am actually crying :cry: I want out, I really do, I want out of the pain, I want out of the problems I want out of this life.