Why do we all seem to pray to [fill in the diety here] to die, just like we pray for everything else (peace, the pain to go away, health, happiness, etc.) when nothing seems to ever happen from it? I still do it, pray to die, every day, knowing that there is no god up there who gives a rat's ass if I live or die, how much pain I'm in, or what happens to me. I have yet to figure out why I even still believe in any diety at all, or if I really do or not. But I certainly know that praying for 37/44 years for death, and going through everything I've been through, that if there is a diety, he/she/it/whatever obviously doesn't give a rat's ass about me. Pretty much like everything else. So I don't get why I (we!) continue trying when this much is so plainly obvious. Is it some kind of inborn thing? Human nature? Training? Habit? So stupid.