I'm not going to be around for the next week. I don't think I will be able to get online anyway. Not sure. Can't say I am looking forward to going. Especially when I feel like this. I am still planning my own death. Maybe this week will improve things, but, I have a feeling it may make things worse. I would rather be on my own so I can get my plans right, but I was kind of coerced in to going. I kind of have a plan set up now. A date where by I can try again. I think it may work considering I came so close last time. It just needs tweeking a bit. I am not telling anyone about the plan. If I do it will make things worse for me.