Going back to school makes me want to die

[TangerineDream]

I have one more year of college, and I leave home for it tommorow. But I am dreading going back so much. This is going to be a tough year because just last semester, I lost a good chunk of my friends because of some stupid drama. This summer at home was alright, but now I have to go back and face them all. I will see them walking around all happy and partying and hooking up with girls, while I just sit around like a loser and do nothing.
I hate my major and all my classes, but I am so far into it, it would be a waste of money to change now. (Business degree) Going to every class is just torture. I don't even know what I want to do with my life when I graduate in a year! Just going back to school is making me want to kill myself so bad. :sad:
I have never once in my life had a girlfriend and it tears me up when I see everyone at school with a significant other. I mean EVERYONE I KNOW has had a girlfriend or boyfriend at some point in their life, and I sit here a 21 year old lonley piece of shit. Everyone tells me that I am attractive and that I could easily have any girl I wanted, but because every girl I have gone after since I was 13 has rejected me.... I am so devastated emotionally that I feel that I am unlovable.

I want to die

 

[sudut]

i know that feeling. but remember the saying "every dog has its day". never say never. its a numbers game in the dating game. for every 11 girls you hit on, you get 1. ask any salesman YOU know. forget your past. its the past. don't predict the future, unless you are all knowing.

 

[am I alive]

This is my story, 100% same as yours, maybe even worse because I'm almost 25, man, what a loser .

 

[justme107]

I'm 36 and never had a boyfriends. And I'm a woman, so theoretically all I have to do is smile and some horny guy will fall all over himself for me. I think loneliness is just at the bottom of all these feelings. We're all just screaming out for someone to like us, touch us, love us. But we're really just screaming inside.

 

[TheBLA]

I'm starting back next Monday and I'm gonna hate it. My life is so pathetic, I'll never make a single friend, go to a single party, have the most boring pathetic life of all time. I want to die as well. :sad:

Last year, I did absolutely nothing but stay inside my room all day, on the computer, making piss poor grades, having absolutely no friends, not joining a single club, etc. I think this year, all I can do is just make better grades but still have a very boring, empty life.

My parents raised me wrong, I am a COMPLETE FUCKING social retard. Damn it all......