These past couple of days have been good, really good. I'm focusing on school and entrance exam results and projects. I don't cry at night and don't feel like vomiting as much as I used to at school. But the semester's ending and projects are being submitted and now I can't find anything to distract myself anymore. It's like that pause you take and you look around at everything that's happening and I'm afraid that I'll go back to that pathetic attention whore side. I don't want to constantly tear up at dumb moments or be a bum when I'm with my friends. This is stupid, i know. Haha, i hate this.