I am starting to believe the world is quite literally against me. I don’t want to talk about my problems but suffice it to say that something fishy seems to be going on. Too much bad luck, too many unfortunate coincidences. I believe the world holds two possibilities: the first is that everything is as it seems. The second is that there is something greater whose sole purpose is either to make me kill myself or drive me to the brink of suicide over and over and over without ever pushing me off. I think that all of the people I know are in on it, including all of you. So why am I posting here? Because I’m desperately hoping that I’m wrong and maybe I can be helped. But right now I’m losing it. Fast.