Been a while. I was on edge for a long while but I finally made some friends. Things were goinging great. Started drinking and smoking, and I know its bad but it did help. I started feeling pretty close to a girl in the group but now I heard that I'm no longer wanted around. Honestly i feel a little led on. I felt like if we were together things would be better. I feel worse off now than I was before I got to know these people. I think tomorrow I'm going to do it. I seriously thought people could like me. Funny huh?