I've been feeling worse lately. I've been crying more. Having more trouble sleeping. I just don't know how much longer I can do this. I'm living for other people, not for me. I'm alone. I've always been slow to let people into my life. Eventually, you can't replace the ones you lose to time and distance and you wind up alone. While there are a few people who would mourn my passing, there aren't many. I guess I'm terrified of ending up completely alone and would rather end things now.