Hey,
So I have posted a few times on the forums, and lurked around. But right now I am starting to spiral down and losing my interest in living or doing anything. I just feel so alone, I have no interest in any of my friends, or interesting/pleasure in anything.
Throughout the day my OCD interferes with my life, and prevents me from doing something in a simple and quick fashion. 3-8 hours of the day are spent with obsessions running through my mind. I feel non-human for the violent thoughts that the OCD have. It just makes me feel so fucking depressed to the point that it isn't worth living anymore.
I have also thought of cutting myself again, it has been about 2 months since I last cut but the urges are coming back and I feel myself slipping back into my old self of cutting daily, etc.
I am on medication but I don't see any change in my mood or anything. It is if I am taking no medication at all. Since it will probably be asked on I am on Prozac and Klonopin. My psych is trying to find new medication to help, but I just don't want to wait much longer. My therapist is trying to help me, but I don't feel that it is helping me at all. Just making me realize how fucked up I am and how I truly don't want to be here anymore. Just wishing for someone to please kill me.
So I have posted a few times on the forums, and lurked around. But right now I am starting to spiral down and losing my interest in living or doing anything. I just feel so alone, I have no interest in any of my friends, or interesting/pleasure in anything.
Throughout the day my OCD interferes with my life, and prevents me from doing something in a simple and quick fashion. 3-8 hours of the day are spent with obsessions running through my mind. I feel non-human for the violent thoughts that the OCD have. It just makes me feel so fucking depressed to the point that it isn't worth living anymore.
I have also thought of cutting myself again, it has been about 2 months since I last cut but the urges are coming back and I feel myself slipping back into my old self of cutting daily, etc.
I am on medication but I don't see any change in my mood or anything. It is if I am taking no medication at all. Since it will probably be asked on I am on Prozac and Klonopin. My psych is trying to find new medication to help, but I just don't want to wait much longer. My therapist is trying to help me, but I don't feel that it is helping me at all. Just making me realize how fucked up I am and how I truly don't want to be here anymore. Just wishing for someone to please kill me.