Going Grey

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  1. BelovedDreamer

    BelovedDreamer Well-Known Member

    Its odd, isn’t it?
    How people can become the lies that they tell.
    We fall into our own traps
    Learn to live the false reality
    That’s bled out of our mouths.
    I watch in silence
    As I allow another lie to cross my tongue
    And resign myself to failure and to falsehood.
    There are times when I cannot help but wonder
    If anyone is actually who they are
    Who they seem to be
    Who they think they are.
    Surely no one is.
    Surely I am not.
    Having one too many times
    Thrown myself into another’s life
    Thrust my aching self into another’s skin.
    I have lost my own shape
    Stretched myself too often
    Square peg, round hole logic.
    Some of what I’ve usurped I can yet identify
    Separate it out and name its owner.
    The way I tilt my head in photos
    Belongs to a woman I loved
    With tired eyes and a cautious smile,
    Bittersweet and oddly young.
    I’m sure she didn’t realize at the time
    What she was doing to me.
    I’m sure there was no malicious intent.
    I’ll keep telling myself
    That I didn’t know what I was getting into.
    But then lying to ourselves has become a habit
    Like nail biting.
    Like chewing on the ends of your hair
    Looking both ways before crossing the street
    Doing things in threes
    Hitting the snooze button.
    Unconscious, unavoidable
    “I did not have sex with that woman.”
    Maybe he believed it.
    “Define sex”
    Maybe he opened his mouth
    And closed his mind.
    Maybe she did.
    Pun intended.
    Forgot the man had a wife
    Forgot that no man who took blow jobs under his desk
    Was worth her time.
    Pretended she was somewhere else
    He was someone else
    That it would get her somewhere.
    Maybe she believed it.
    Subversive self deception.
    Maybe the mendacity is all that lets us live.
    White lies in grey areas.
  2. theleastofthese

    theleastofthese SF Friend Staff Alumni

    Dearly Beloved;

    :eek:hmy: :smile: :eek:hmy: :smile: :eek:hmy: :smile:

    I don't know how you keep coming up with these gems, but I'm so glad you share them with us.:smile: I learn a lot from reading your works: I learn something about you, I learn something about myself, I learn something about all of us. You are a most beautiful and unique learning experience!:smile: :smile:


  3. thedeafmusician

    thedeafmusician Staff Alumni

    *speechless* a powerful write... :hug:

  4. Marshmallow

    Marshmallow Staff Alumni

    :eek:hmy: WOW! nice work!! :biggrin:
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